2 Cents

Do you know what I mean when I say 2 cents? You know when people give you unwanted advice. That is a pet peeve of mine. For example, I have been out of work for a hot minute. Its a lot of folks who got shit to say, you know, "if I was you". If you was me, what? What would you do? You can say a lot when you on the outside looking in. I honestly believe that those folks who are telling me, "Girl just get a job" will not take the jobs they are trying to get me to do. SMDH

I have finally come to the conclusion that I don't have to answer to anybody. What I do is my business, if I am not asking you for any money or you not donating any money then your opinion really don't count. How I spend my money is my business.

So how do you feel about people giving you unwanted advice? Do you give unwanted advice?

Now that was my two cents.

Deuces...........

Weekend Fabulousnees

I had a great weekend.

On Saturday I went to see For Colored Girls. I was very skeptical about the movie because the reviews were not very good. Now I wouldn't call myself a Tyler Perry fan but this was a good piece of work. In my opinion I feel as if Tyler Perry did his best to stay true to Ntozake Shange's piece of work. If I had a hat I would tip it toward it Tyler Perry. If you haven't seen it, I recommend that you go. One of my favorite quotes from the book and the movie, " There is a real dead loving for you here now."

I went to see the movie with my social group and after the movie we had lunch at Mongo-The Mongolian Fire Pit. I enjoyed it a lot. I will definitely be going back. My Saturday was full of good conversation surrounded by positive people. You can't go wrong when you surround yourself with good people.

On Sunday, I was able to do one of my all time favorite past times, which is painting pottery. My BF and I used to go all the time but we just stopped, I don't know why we stopped but we did. When it comes to painting pottery we are so lame, we become so anal or should I say I become so anal its ridiculous. I decided to paint a plate and a coaster. I tried new techniques on both pieces. I hope they come out flyyyy. Here are the before pics.

I like flowers, as you can tell from the above pics. After painting pottery went we to have dinner at a cafe. I liked the cafe a lot. My dinner was delicious. It was very good. I always enjoy the time that I get to spend with my long time friend. Hopefully my friend and I will be able to do one of our favorite past times more often.

All in all, this weekend was good. It was relaxing and laid back. It was so what I needed.

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Cougar??

So,there is the guy who works the for gym that I attend. He is so cute to me. Anyway we never really had a conversation. Of course I told my bf about him and she was like talk to him. So, yesterday when I walked in he instantly started a conversation with me. We were talking and flirting. During this time he made a comment about what I was wearing and I said I should come here more often dress liked this if you gonna say stuff like that. Once I made this comment he proceeded to walk over to the computer and he said, only if I was 5 years older, I'm only 22. He thinks I'm old. After that comment I changed the subject and made my exit. I told my friend about it and she was like he thinks you are a cougar.

What are thoughts of cougars? Older women and younger men? Plus, when did people start seeing 30 as being old?



Another tidbit.......

I have a male friend, lets name him Cook Boy cause he likes to cook. Anyway Cook Boy and I pretty good friends we hang out but the thing is, is that he wants to be more than friends. We have discussed this on several occasions and we came to an agreement that we would be friends. Ok, so fast forward to today we are having a conversation about my hair and he proceeds to ask me if I shave, I respond with no I don't that is what my beautician is for, he says no not that, you know what I am talking about. I got extremely angry by this comment. I was like that is none of your fucking business. We are suppose to be friends and friends only, I don't answer questions like that from my friends especially male friends. Did I over react? Maybe, maybe not. Thoughts or comments???

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I was so sad this morning so I decided to take a walk, and on this said walk I grew very angry and all that sadness went out the window.

Its Our Anniversary...... NOT

Today would have been my five year wedding anniversary. It would have been a total of 13 years that we would have been together. I'm a little sad. It hurts that we are no longer together. Legally we still are, but emotionally, physically, or mentally we are not. I have been thinking about him a lot lately. All the fun we used to have together, experiencing new things together, there was a time when I just wanted to be in his presence. When we were happy, we were happy, now we don't even talk. I'm feeling a little down.

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Confused

I am honestly confused as to why I have a blog. I love to read blogs, I read them all the time, some I read everyday, but why is it I have a blog and don't blog. I have all these blog topics written down and they never end up on this blog. It baffles me.

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Failure

What is failure? According to the definition failure is the condition or fact of not achieving the desired end or ends, one that fails, the condition or fact of being insufficient or falling short, or a decline in strength or effectiveness. I have only mentioned part of the definition, it goes on. I mentioned the part that I feel describes me. This is how I feel right about now.



Failure has always been a fear of mine. You always want to succeed in whatever you do. Most people know how to handle success but how do you handle failure? Even when you have people around you that genuinely care, what about those times when you are alone with your thoughts. I constantly think about that I am about to be 30 years old, with no job, no husband(we are getting a divorce), living at home with my parents, with no income. Am I a failure because of those things? In my mind yes. I feel like I have failed myself, failed my family, and my friends. Don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for my family and friends, they have both provided support in more ways than one. The feelings still linger.



Whats crazy is while typing this post, I was browsing the net and came across this scripture:
Romans 8:18 For I reckon that the sufferings of the present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.

WOW, I got chills just from reading that.

This feeling of failure is only temporary. It shall pass.

Deuces...........